Tears and Darkness

This is a story about the aftermath of a 4-year relationship and the enduring feelings of life with a broken heart.

Food doesn’t taste the same anymore.  In fact, life in general no longer holds the same wonder and wildness.  When quietness creeps in like a shadow, the soft sobs are the only sound in the stillness.  Her eyes burn with salty tears that pool until they overflow to begin a journey.

There, a tear gently, silently resting on her smooth cheek, breaking and magnifying the light from inside that bleeds from her very soul.  It cuts a wet trail of sorrow as an outward expression of so much within.  Traveling ever downward, it pauses to gather at her chin until finally, it falls to her broken breast where, sharp and hot there rages, reason for its being.

In these moments, there is a wrenching of the gut like a wringing of the hands.  A life inside of a pain and darkness that she doesn’t fully understand.  Yet it remains like the pack of a peddler on her back…something that she can’t explain.  Four years play like scenes from a movie before her eyes adding to the anguish.  It’s inescapable, but palpable like the bittersweet thrust of a blade in her chest.  No one ever quite gets it: her family or the people she used to know.

She knows it so well as the constant pulse in her breast that makes her question her existence at best.  She looks for a glimmer of hope in the dark…the stark…coldness.  She only finds a fear of growing old with the nothingness, the knife in her chest, and the ache in her breast of the terrible knowing that without love she will continue through life like this.

Donning a mask once more as the sorrow fades into her core, she hides the redness of her eyes.  She feigns a thing called strength fighting never to appear weak or broken from the splitting of her soul from the one who brought meaning and depth to life.  Lying in the arms of another, she wonders if everything will always feel second best like it does right now.

With time will the memory and feelings fade?  Will the images ever disappear or the spoken words that resound in her mind?  She is dying to stop wanting for more or at least what once was.  Nothing spans the chasm once bridged by words, love, the sound of a voice, a meeting face to face…that completeness is lost.

Love songs resound on a loop in her mind as she goes from day to day.  All of this is hidden in the careful building of a wall that’s a lie she is telling herself.  If anyone knew, they might write her off as emotional and weak, so it’s tucked in the back of her heart next to faith and the stars.  Life moves forward save for the moments that fill those four years replaying at random when the walls break down.

Others know her by these same things in themselves.  They know the bitter tears and despair of love lost and never returning.  They know the dreams that haunt and wake with deep anguished breaths and a realness they can’t bear or explain.

The tears and darkness are in everyone filed away behind living, working, brilliance, and light.  Hidden in the murky depths of strength where meaning and motivation overpower the negative by sheer will.  Where sharp and hot there rages the reason to live to the fullest in spite of it all.

Authored by Ava Fails, US

The REAL Way of Burning Fat

This article is about how fads and pills do not work on losing fat and shedding the pounds. It shows the real way of losing fat, at how that is the only effective way. It also talks about the use of supplements and how they have virtually no effect on losing fat.

The world we live in is controlled by the media. Everyone is looking at things like ‘Fat-Burning Belt: Wear it and you lose 6 inches!’ and ‘Drink This Stuff: You Lose Weight Overnight!’.
And, it’s infuriating to think that at least 90% of these new fads won’t work.
How do I know?
They never stick around for much longer than a few weeks. The only ‘pills’ and ‘medicines’ that can help with fat-loss and fitness are SUPPLEMENTS.
And they do exactly what they say. They supplement. They don’t burn fat magically, or make you skinny overnight.

Even more disturbing, I saw so many diets that had EXTREMELY LOW CALORIES and EXTREMELY LOW FAT.
When you begin to starve yourself, your muscle starves too. And then, your metabolism goes into ’starvation mode’.
And then, you stop losing fat altogether. It just doesn’t work.
Actually, eating more, and exercising more actually works more effectively than the vice-versa.

So, I just thought to myself, ‘Hmm, this doesn’t look right. Maybe, just maybe, I should write about the way I lost fat.’
And it came to this.

But before you do anything, ACTUALLY WRITE DOWN YOUR GOALS.
Yes, don’t ignore this part because it sounds stupid.
If you don’t have a goal, where are you heading?
Done? Good.

So, here is what I came to: Basic Guidelines on how to REALLY burn fat.

1) Cardio, 45 Minutes, 3-5 Days a week until you reach your goal.
Once you reach your goal, only work as much as it takes to maintain your physique.

2) Muscle Building, 4 Sets of 12 Reps a day. The weight you should lift should be heavy enough to not be able to do 16, but light enough to do at least 8.
DO NOT SKIP THE PART!
Growth of muscle encourages increases of speed in metabolism, which can increase the speed of your fat-loss dramatically.

3) Balanced Diet
Contrary to popular belief, LOW-FAT DIETS and ULTRA-LOW CALORIE DIETS just don’t work.
The way, I’ve found easiest, is a LOW-CARB DIET.

Make sure you have all of these; otherwise the whole Fat-Burning will almost just disappear.
This concept relies on the idea of synergy, in which, 1+1 might not equal 2, but might be 11!

You should be able to see results in 6 weeks.

Extra Tips:

1) Try to do Cardio before breakfast - It’s far, far more efficient.
2) Eggs are good to eat, but try to avoid the Yolk. Only eat one Yolk a day, but the whites are good for as many as even 6.
3) Don’t take a day off and decide to ’skip a day’ because your feeling lazy or you don’t have time.
If you don’t have time, MAKE TIME.

Authored by Anthony Duong, United Kingdom